Ecclesiastes 9:9

Enjoy life with your wife, whom you love, all the days of this meaningless life that God has given you under the sun - all your meaningless days. Of course in my case, this would mean a husband. I truly have a happy heart when I think about spending days with my special someone, hopefully someday soon. It's pretty incredible how our days here on earth are meaningless compared to forever we'll get to have with Jesus and yet he has given us the gift of loving each other and simply enjoying life. I've come to the conclusion that guys talk about their future wives way more than girls talk about their future husbands. So in that case, I have some room to talk... I'd like to fall in love with a man who will play the guitar for me, take photos with me, cook with me, give me piggy back rides, hold my hand and tell me stories, plant a garden with me, and live meaningless days with me.

Little miss Nicole and I had a little baking/crafting afternoon. We made fruity pebble rice crispies complete with frosting and sprinkles. Whoever thought of that recipe is a genius. They were so wonderful. Then we made pictures frames out of toilet paper roles. Haha, it sounds interesting I know. I was invited for dinner so we ate tacos. Tonight was the first night in a long while that I ate beef. It didn't really bother me which is good. Maybe I'm growing out of my disgust with the cow meat. We booked it over to the movie theater and watched The Last Song. It is a great movie and I recommend it to anyone who likes a good romance, not to mention a tear jerker. I'd like to go live on a beach and be tan with long flowing hair right at this moment.

I've listened to this song on repeat for the last hour. Lovely.

day 2 of spring break

It is Spring Break and I spent most of my day doing homework. That is lame, but I finished most of it so now I won't have to worry the rest of the week. The second not fun thing that took place was taking a trip to the immunization place. I had to get my last shot for Hepatitis A or B, I can't remember. The lady stabbed the shot into my arm and I'm not joking about that. She did everything so fast she missed the spot when she put the little circle band-aid on and I was surprised I didn't get any blood on my shirt. You'd think that people in that profession would have a little bit more sympathy and would have gentle actions but nope, not this one.

Noah and Casey picked me up and we took a little adventure to VV in hopes of finding a beanie for Noah. That was a fail but we picked up Kevin instead. Plus who buys a hat at Value Village? Talk about lice! After Panda's drive through, watching Noah eat in Starbucks, a quick drive to let Kipper out, stop at Rite Aid, and then Safeco? No Walgreens, well another store that had rice crispy ingredients, we finally made our way to Casey's house. We attempted to make marshmallow squares and ultimately burnt them. They turned brown but were still eatable. Casey made the most delicious fresh fruit juice I've ever tasted! I really need to get myself one of those juice making machines. Prince of Egypt anyone? Yep, that movie was soon in the VCR and running. It's been a long time since I've seen that but it never gets old.

I saw angels fall down at the glory of the Lord, and as I raised my hands I sing, I saw angels fall down at the glory of the Lord and as I hit the ground I sing.

right and wrong

No man has power over the wind to contain it; so no one has the power over the day of his death. Ecclesiastes 8:8. This verse really stuck out to me today. In school the topic of assisted suicide and the death sentence keep coming up. In every situation I've been asked my opinion. I believe that since God has given us life, he is the only one who can take it away. He's got plans for each and every person for every day of their life until he's ready to take it away. While being asked my opinion by unbelievers and those who have different beliefs as I do, I wish I had this verse stored away in my mind so I could have evidence of what I stand on. The good thing is, I know have it so when someone asks my opinion about this serious and scary topic, I'll have my defense.

I backed my pictures and got them ready to send off for the auction in Pullman. Laurel and I are each sending a couple prints of some of our photos to an art auction. All of the proceeds are going to help eight girls go through school in Nepal. I think it's amazing how God has given us talents that can help other people to live better lives. It just reminds me of how unique and special he has made you and me. Trying to be like someone else is a waste of who you are.

I have to see Trevor Hall in concert before I die... I think I'm in love with him.

The evening was filled with Karli and I getting dominated in board games by Kevin and Noah. First we lost Taboo, then Noah won Clue, then Kevin won Egyptian Rat Race. It was great spending time with friends who I don't get to see very often. Here's a little hint if you ever plan on playing board games with Noah... he likes to cheat! ;) so watch out!

aquarium

Seattle Aquarium. I recommend this to anyone if you'd like to have a good time! My almost 20 year old sister, parents and I were surrounded by little kids and babies the whole time. I honestly don't know why anyone would take a 2 year old to the aquarium. They have no idea what's going on anyways. Anyways, we had a great time looking at all of the crazy interesting fish but the best part was the otters! They are officially my favorite animal. They are downright adorable and are just so happy all the time. A guy standing next to us was wondering out loud why God didn't make him an otter. Haha, I'd have to say that being one of those furry creatures would be quite wonderful. Did you know they spend 30% of the day cleaning themselves? Yep, they've got to keep themselves looking pretty. We made our way through the rest of the aquarium only to end up in the gift shop. I found otter backpacks and we couldn't resist! My dad bought them for Carly and I. My mom asked if it was nice being in 5th grade again, haha. I named my little guy Willie and Carly's is Roland. Oh man, they are just so great! I can't wait to stuff him full and take him somewhere. We spent some more time just wandering through the little shops and then dropped Carly off at her dorm. When we were walking in we came across Carly's friend Tore who was playing the piano. He doesn't know how to read music but can play George Winston by memory. He simply has a gift and I could truly sit and listen to him all day. And back on the road we went. I got my 3 and a half hour nap, took a walk with my parents when we got home and had a bowl of cereal for dinner. Carly's other friend Joel was talking about how excited he was for the show Life and we watched it tonight! It is unbelievable how people capture video and pictures of these animals. It also goes to show how amazing and different every animal in the world is and how evolution is absolutely absurd. I think that everyone should watch this show sometime in their lifetime! It's on the Discovery channel!

row, row, row your boat

Today was a day filled with excitement and sadness. It was the beginning of the crew season. My sister has been working so hard to get to this point and she didn't get to be a part of the races today. It really breaks my heart to see her in this situation. Don't get me wrong though, it was really exciting to watch the rowers. My parents and I went out on a big boat to watch them from the water. Before the races began we got to see the billion dollar houses lining the bay shorelines, including Bill Gates's house! Did you know that it has 24 bathrooms? Afterwards there was a BBQ at the boat house and then we spent the afternoon walking through shops downtown. We spent a little bit of time at a really pretty beach also. We decided on the Old Spaghetti Factory for dinner and quickly all became stuffed. Carly let me hang out with some her crew friends. Joel, Tore and Simon.. they are very nice fellas, although the first impression... rather interesting!

seattle

Here I am again, in Seattle. My parents and I arrived at our bargain hotel and got ready for the Formal Crew Dinner. I was privileged to meet all of Carly's crew friends and had fun laughing at the grunties (freshmen boys)who had to shave their heads. It's a tradition for them not to cut their hair until the season and then they have to shave it all off. I accidentally ate a mushroom during dinner and I about gagged with strangers sitting next to me. I also tried tofu for the first time, not knowing. That is also a food that I don't ever want to eat again. They showed really intense, amazing videos of the boys crew teams dominating other schools. It really makes me miss playing a sport and being a part of a team. I am now sitting on my hotel bed, being interrupted by funny conversations of my lovely family. My sister is even staying with us tonight. Gosh, I've missed her. I seriously laugh more than ever when she's around. Early morning ahead!

lovely days

After school Jayanah accompanied me to Laurel's tennis match at Southridge. The wind didn't stop them from playing. Casey arrived right when we did so we layed out our blankets in the grass and held up our signs! Every time Laurel looked at us, she smiled. Probably because Casey's sign was so awesome! I said goodbye to Laurel and Meryn.. I won't see them for over a week! They will be in sunny Arizona while I stay home and do nothing! Oh, I probably will find some fun things to do but I wouldn't have complained fitting in her suitcase. I'm already excited to hear all about her trip! Jay and I then headed over to the All City Talent Show. There was so much variety among the acts and it was super fun to be a part of it, even though all I did was help backstage. Came home and packed my bag for Seattle. Four classes tomorrow and then hello big city, crew dinner and sister!

rollar blades...

... and scooters! Laurel and I took an adventure this afternoon and whipped out the wheels. Laurel in her dress and I with my good old trusty blades on my feet we headed down the path along the river. We played on the swings and had some quality best friend time. Laurel: taking a look at some high schoolers with their mother, "aren't they a little old to be throwing rocks?" Me: taking a look at Laurel, "aren't we a little old to be scootering?" Haha, oh how I just love her! Making our way back to the cars we spotted a lady holding a ferret. We couldn't pass this up, so we had a good conversation with the lady and got to pet the long animal. He was flat out adorable, complete with a harness and dog tag!

In my sweaty rollar blading t-shirt I went to the All City Talent Show rehearsal. I get to be curtain girl. Woohoo! Came home and attempted to keep my eyes open for American Idol. I'm not quite sure about this season. It doesn't have the best talent but I'm sure we'll come out with a quality individual.

He seldom reflects on the days of his life, because God keeps him occupied with gladness of heart. Ecclesiastes 5:20

first for everything

There is a first for everything and today I ate my first peanut butter and jelly sandwich since I was 3 years old. It was simply delicious. Now I know what I've been missing all these years!

Today was a Tuesday with no school. Being the good student I am, I woke up somewhat early to get my homework done. I had a relaxing morning doing what I pleased. I found a nice spot on the living room floor where a beam of sun light was shining and I decided that would be a lovely place to read my bible. Feeling the warmth of the light I opened to Ecclesiastes 3. This verse stuck out to me: He has made everything beautiful in it's name. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men, yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 3:11. I love how it paints a picture of all the incredible things God has done. It isn't possible to know everything he did or said but just thinking about all of the people he's healed and has yet to save... it's amazing. No, He's amazing.

The morning kept going and it was time for my Tribe conference. I met my dad at school and had a quick but very nice meeting with Mr. Ard. It's always good to have teachers call you a very confident and competent young lady and a student that makes their job worth while ;) Karli and I then did a little thrift shopping. Jean shorts for 6 buckaroos. Can't really beat that. In the middle of walking through Barnes & Noble I realized my pinky finger was bleeding, haha. I even managed to get blood on my shirt which was gross. Karli gave me a pickle band-aid and all was well again. I grabbed an Orange Julius and we were off to watch Laurel's tennis match. She and Elinor played great and won their match! It was such a lovely afternoon soaking up the sun while watching my best friend dominate in her little green t. I even made her a sign. I'm such a dedicated fan!

I talked to my sister on the phone for a few minutes, took a walk with my mom, had a little nap, ate some tortellini and watched American Idol before calling it bed time. Guess what? Spring break in 3 days!

sky view

Today was senior skip day and I'm proud to say that I went to school. Let's try again in May shall we? I decided that today should be a greet day so Kailee and I arrived at school a bit earlier than usual and stood at the front gate to say good morning to the grumpy heads. It's surprising how many people don't even look up when you intentionally say something to them. But hey, all we can do is be happy and hope it wears off. The day flew by pretty quickly and before I knew it I was at my intern. I haven't been there in what seems like weeks so I was so happy to see the kids. I worked with Vanessa on math today. She is a struggler and today she was getting it! I was giving her high fives all around and getting a little too excited when she put three numbers in order from greatest to smallest. We had fun and it made me even more excited thinking about being a teacher someday.

After school I had another "finger" doctors appointment. They injected me again and now my fingers have heartbeats in them. Let me tell you, a shot in the middle of your palm is not a pleasant feeling. Hopefully this will do the trick and I'll be 100% wart free in the very near future!

Looking out the window I realized that it was way too lovely outside to be cooped up indoors so I grabbed my blanket, bible, journal, and camera and planted myself in the grass in the back yard. I put my bible under my head for a pillow, closed my eyes and just listened. I heard: a bee buzzing past my ear, cars driving by, the soft breeze rustling the leaves, a wind chime, car music, a car door shut, all different types of birds chirping, dogs barking and leaves hitting the ground. These all seem like typical everyday noises right? Well they are, but at the same time they are precious gifts from God. He didn't have to give us these things but he wanted to. He wanted us to hear them and think about them. He wanted to give us life and let us simply hear life. It was a good reminder that there is life outside of "me." Too easily I tend to get wrapped up in my life like nothing else matters, but it does. The bee that buzzed by my ear and the person driving the car that went by... they matter. They are precious gifts from God and I need to go out and hear from more of what He's created. On another note, I decided that I am going to read Ecclesiastes. Laurel has been talking about it and she always tells me the great things she gets from it so now I'm going to read about how everything is meaningless :) Reading the introduction these wisdom counsels really got me: 1) Accept the human state as it is shaped by God's appointments and enjoy the life you have been given as fully as you can. 2) Don't trouble yourself with unrealistic goals - know the measure of human capabilities. 3) Be prudent in all your ways - follow wisdom's leading. 4) "Fear God and keep his commandments" (12:13). These four guidelines pretty much sum up how we should live our lives and I needed to hear it.

The later part of the day was filled with great conversations with friends I love. There is nothing better than sitting in a circle and talking about our lives and what makes us happy. I am one blessed and fortunate girl to be surrounded by such wonderful people all the time.

To end my eventful day, Laurel and I had a good talk on the phone. I always love hearing her hilarious play by play stories from the day. She laughed at my raspy voice and I knew she was jealous ;)

lovely mess

So here is my newly cleaned closet. It still looks like a hurricane just blew through but I managed to sweep out two full garbage bags so I'm happy with the outcome. Oh and that tacky yet strangely beautiful thing on the right is my $10 prom dress! Laurel and I found it last summer and both decided it was a keeper so we each pitched in five bucks for the purchase.

I enjoyed two church services today! First at Bethel... pastor Dave never ceases to deliver a message with such genuineness. Next came Erwin's sermon which also spoke to my heart. It reminded me of how much I need to continue to reach out to those in need and the ones who may not be the most liked or easy to be around. I have friends who are strictly "church" people. They look at others who may not be "godly" and they turn away. Those are the ones we need to touch and share ourselves with. Jesus searched out the hurt and weary and he befriended them like nothing was different about his flesh from the one in front of him. That is how I want to be. Erwin reawakened that passion in my heart this morning. Just because some people don't sit in front of the palace in rich clothes and sipping their iced mochas doesn't mean they don't deserve to know the truth and be loved.

Laurel tapped me on the shoulder during church and handed me a tea bag. It was cute. I proceeded to drink it during discipleship and it was quite delicious, although it did smell like bubble gum. We discussed chapter 3 of Esther for a little while but I had to leave early to finish my third Hamlet essay. Ugh, just shoot me now. I can't wait for this english class to be over! Took a target run with my mom and found a $3.74 shirt! That is definitely my kind of shopping. Had dinner with my parents and watched some insanely disturbing, creepy detective shows on the tele. Remind me never again to watch Criminal Minds!

Tomorrow is school and then a lovely day off!

list

I feel like making a list, so here it goes:

- I realized that I take a lot of close up macro shots. I think it's cause they come out differently every time.
- I practiced my guitar today. I still suck.
- I'd really enjoy learning how to do origami.
- I like talking with my mom about religion while walking around the neighborhood.
- My closet got cleaned out today. I filled a big garbage bag of things I don't want.
- My throat still hurts and my body is still aching.
- I watched New Moon and had dinner with some friends that I haven't hung out with in over a year. I've truly missed them.
- I have a food addiction. If it's in front of me, I eat it.
- I made a "to do" list today. I love crossing things off.
- I can't stop listening to this goodness.
- Childrens liquid flu medicine is one of the nastiest things ever!
- It is finally bare foot weather and I'm so grateful.
- I miss my little basketball team.
- I am running out of thoughts for today. My brain is tired.

hospital visits

We got a call from Carly at 6:30 this morning so we got ready, had a little continental breakfast and were on our way to the hospital. We walked in her room and I was so glad to see her. I hated seeing my bubbly, energetic sister laying on a hospital bed in pain. She was on morphine so I couldn't help but laugh at her loopyness. I managed to put the wrong number in my phone for Paul so I got a text from a random person saying, "I'm not Paul." Haha, it made us laugh. We spent a couple hours hanging out and talking with Carly. Well kind of talking, she was having trouble keeping her eyes open. The other day I started feeling sick but today was horrible. My whole body ached and I kept getting shivers along with a bad sore throat and headache. My head felt like it weighed a billion pounds. Hopefully it will only get better from here. There were signs all over the hospital that said if you have one of these symptoms you need to put on a mask: sore throat, cough and uhh I can't remember the rest. I obviously fit in that category so I put on a mask. The real reason for it though was Carly wasn't allowing me to post this picture anywhere unless I looked like a sad patient with her. Once Carly had her medication filled and papers ready to go, we took her back to her dorm room. We got her situated so she could rest and my parents and I went to lunch. We had sandwiches at Beba's Cafe then headed up to REI. Oh man, I could spend so much money in that store. It is gigantic and filled with glorious items. I got a call from Tommy saying that he got the Campus Rep position for Toms! I got so excited, even though it probably didn't sound like it cause my throat wouldn't let my voice out. He asked if I wanted to do it with him so we're planning on doing a video chat with one of their employees tomorrow! Whoohoo! My parents and I then got coffee, well my dad did. My mom and I ordered tea and we walked down on the boardwalk. The weather was so beautiful today. I snapped some pictures and then we walked through Pike's looking at all of the cool vendors. Seattle has some flat out interested people! We ended up with this cool rock vase and two tulips for Carly. We headed back to the dorm and after Carly made a list of groceries my dad and I went out to get them. After driving around in circles we finally found Trader Joes and after endless tries at the parking meter we finally paid for 32 minutes of parking. This grocery store was so tiny and was filled with only health food. I guess that's a good thing! We delivered the groceries and then we were back on the road to the tri. I hate saying goodbye. My eyes get watery every time even though we'll be back in Seattle next weekend. I miss my sister and I wish we would spend more time together. I slept the entire way home, only waking up when we stopped. Taco Del Mar for dinner and then more sleeping. As soon as we got home I jumped in the shower. After going two days, I thought it might make me feel better. Then came more sleep. I hope I'll feel better tomorrow.

change of plans

Change of plans for today. I didn't go to school, at all. My parents and I took off for Seattle to be with my sister during her surgery. For a little break on the way we stopped at Central and Jon Murbah gave us a little tour of my future home. It made me very nervous to think that I'll be there in a couple months but at the same time, I'm way excited! After a couple more hours of driving we pulled into the surgery pavilion and met Carly and Paul in the waiting room. She had been waiting to be called back for surgery for hours and was feeling rather hungry since she wasn't allowed to eat all day. More waiting and finally she was ready to go. Three and a half hours of surgery later the doctor came out and told us that she completely shattered her radial head and he had to put it back together like a puzzle. I guess it was like taking all the tiny crumbs at the bottom of the chip bag and trying to fit them into one chip again. My parents got to see her for a few minutes and then we headed to the hotel. Talk about a long and exhausting day. We'd be back in the morning.

Music please ; one, two, three, four.

waffles and dresses

Today was a dress day, all around. I put on my little stripped summer dress complete with pockets and my pink loafers. Yes, I wore pink haha. That never happens. I dropped off some goodies at school for the Classified individuals and then headed over to Laurel's for breakfast. We made Belgian waffles with strawberries, blueberry syrup, whip cream and in Laurel's case, sprinkles. I thoroughly enjoyed them while sipping on my cup of coffee. Laurel and I both decided that a NeedToBreathe concert would be way better than Prom. They are on the same night and we have some deciding to do. I have the perfect dress and shoes already... $10 specimen at Value Village and some hand me down shoes. Perfect. Or... epic concert with my best friend for 16 bucks? Sometimes decisions can be so hard to make! I left for school and pretty much did nothing all day. I just sat and thought about all of the English homework I have for the weekend. I think I'm going to throw a party the day that class is over. On another note, L-dawg and I decided that we need to work on our beach bods a little bit, or a lot! Ha, we ate bananas in the hot tub the other day and made a plan to eat only healthy food. I ate 3 cookies, a brownie and ice cream today. Total failure on my part. Today is a new day, someone ask me what I ate tonight please! Maybe that will keep me feeling guilty if I eat a sugary piece of goodness. I went for a jog after school, running to Sanctus. The words of their songs are so true and relevant to my life and they really keep me thinking about how I go through my days and where my heart truly is. These questions got my head turning in circles...

Why am I so afraid of the dark but I stray from the light?
Why did you give me eyes when faith is how I see?
Is it easier to doubt or harder to believe?
Why does success make us feel like failures?
Why is it that the harder we fall the harder we try?
Why is it that the more that I have the more I need?

We spend so much time chasing these worldly things and take our focus off of the whole point of life. I know I do, it happens every day. I guess I really don't have much else to say about it... All I know is that I need to look straight ahead to the Father who has given me light, faith, and a chance to believe. I want to see through faith and not by sight. I shouldn't be afraid of the dark because I know that I'm surrounded by the light. Just something to think about I suppose...

I took another shower. Two in one day = a waste of water and I know it. I got ready for a Semi-Formal Dessert night at South Hills Church. It was a lovely evening, filled with limo rides, improv commedy, life stories, worship and good times with friends. I wore more make-up than I have in a long while and my eyes wanted to kill me. Mascara is the ultimate worst thing to wash off at the end of the day. Who even created such a thing?

Well my feet are cold and I want to crawl in bed, nighty night!

early rising

Most seniors were sleeping in this morning. Not me... I woke up at 5:00 and packed my knapsack. I headed over to Laurel's house where we piled in Casey's car and drove to the mountain. Laurel, Casey, Kevin, Sarah, Pierre (who are Casey's beautiful shelties) and I squished in the sour milk smelling car. Good thing it was a short drive! From there we started our journey. It was dark and on the way up the sun started to say hello. It was a beautiful sight. The city lights twinkling and the cool air blowing past our faces. We made it to the top, set out the blankets, whipped out the bagels and had some breakfast. We watched the rest of the sunrise and had fun with the doggies. The whole experience made for a good workout, nice bonding time and the peacefulness of a sweet spring morning. Laurel and I immediately jumped in the hot tub when we got back from the hike. It felt so nice to warm my frozen hands. Meryn accompanied us and kept us giggling the whole time. She is such a joy to be around!

Next came school... 25 minute classes = the most pointless thing ever. I had a guitar lesson and had fun attempting to be somewhat decent at the instrument. I thoroughly enjoy listening to Gregg sing the songs though! I came home and decided to sit outside and practice a little more. I hope the neighbors didn't have to hear me, haha. It was so warm and glorious that I decided to wash and clean out my car. I cranked a "Phil Wickham" station on Pandora and sat on the driveway eating an apple before I started that process. My mom and I went for a walk. It's so strange not having Daisy with us. After dinner I made some sugar cookies with green sprinkles for St. Patrick's Day tomorrow. I didn't really have any homework which is a good thing cause I don't think I would have done it if I did have any.

If anyone is reading this... please pray for my sister. She called us tonight and said that she broke her elbow. She has worked harder than I've ever seen for Crew and now it's over. The season was two weeks away from starting. We are devastated for her and she just really needs prayer to stay positive. I can't help but have tears in my eyes typing this. I was so proud of her for working so hard. I know God has a reason... it just seems impossible to see at a time like this.

Who is wise? Let them realize these things. Who is discerning? Let them understand. The ways of the Lord are right; the righteous walk in them, but the rebellious stumble in them. Hosea 14:9 No matter what God throws at us we have to deal with it. Help us to realize that your ways Lord, are right. You turn the breakdowns in our lives to beauty. We just have to turn our hearts to you so we can hear it, see it and feel it.

Who knew Phil Wickham had a brother? Yes, his name is Evan. This video is down right precious and adorable, not to mention inspiring.

God is Good.

Today I had an awe inspiring moment...
So, while in Erwin's kitchen yesterday he walked in and mentioned these siblings that we needed to invite to young life. I was walking across campus today, ready to leave for my intern when Erwin texted me asking if I had invited this individual girl yet. I replied with a "no, I never see her." After I hit the send button, I looked up and the girl we were talking about walked right in front of me. I ran over to her and quickly invited her to club. Now that is cool. Thank you God, you are so faithful.

I was looking on Etsy the other day, while board in comp. aps. and stumbled upon this beautiful wedding dress. I immediately pictured the day... my beautiful, soon to be husband smiling at me while walking barefoot on warm sand. The wind gently blowing my hair and listening to the faint sound of piano and waves crashing. My gracious, I truly am so impatient for that day. I love weddings, everything about them. The fact that two creations of God love each other so much they want to spend forever together. Aw, such a sweet part of life.

so, come with me...

Who is coming up from the wilderness leaning on her beloved? Song of Songs 8:5. Picture a girl walking in a field leaning against Jesus, laughing and adoring each other. That is me, you, us. Even when our lives are altered we are still the apple of Jesus's eye and his beloved. Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it. Matthew 10:39. If Jesus wants us to change something in our lives, he has something far greater than we could ever imagine. We have to die to ourselves before we can see the joy of his beauty for our lives.

Today...
There were strawberries in the fridge!
I went for a lovely walk with my mom.
Wrote two essays on Hamlet. Ewwww, not enjoyable.
Painted a watercolor picture.
Listened to an excess amount of Sanctus Real.
Had an awesome bible study with my best friends.

Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you. Isaiah 60:1

Yet To Come

Climbing Badger today was a great break to my endless hours of writing papers. My mom and I had a good conversation about the new earth and when Jesus is going to reign in Jerusalem. It is a marvelous sight, to close my eyes and picture myself hanging out with Jesus face to face. The image of Him and I just lounging in big comfy chairs laughing and telling each other stories fills my mind. It's kind of crazy to think of how much people, including myself, need to impress others with our appearances and outward actions. We are only here on earth for a tiny amount of time compared to the 1,000 years of being completely and utterly perfect and on top of that spending eternity with Jesus. So why do I let the small unimportant things in life take a hold of my every thought and action? If it's not being done for Jesus than there is no point what so ever. Why waste our time trying to perfect ourselves when Jesus will just make us perfect in the very near future? I'm not sure if any of this is making sense but I just can't seem to fathom how truly incredible it will be to be able to hug Jesus and actually see his face, his hair, his feet, his beard (if he has one)and just look at him with my own two eyes. The lyrics of the song Yet to Come by Danyew fit perfectly with what we talked about today.

The cry of my heart is to bring you praise.

What if...

Today was one of those days where you learn things you'll never forget. I learned things about new friends who have made lasting footprints in my heart by their actions and words in just these last two days. Reading a letter to my parents on a stage in an auditorium full of people, acting as if those were my last words to them, was one of the most difficult things I've ever done. Tears were streaming down my face and my eyes were so blurred that I could barely read the words on the paper in front of me. It was simply a mock death but being in a situation where I had to look at the possibility of the reality was heartbreaking. There are people everyday who don't get to have the privilege of a "mock death". They deal with the real thing and for that my heart goes out to them.

My parents and I went over to the Dunn family's house for dinner. It was a lot of fun! They are such funny, enlightening and just lovely people. Then came the Sanctus Real concert! Holy smokes! It was fantastic. The lead singer even grabbed my hand, haha. I decided that christian concerts are truly the best... so inspirational and worth while.

To top off the night, Laurel, Casey, Kevin Brad and I drove to... uhh somewhere. I honestly can't tell you where we went. Somewhere beautiful that gave us the view of the city lights. We had a little jam session all squished in the car. Kevin whipped out his guitar while Casey did a little beat on his box drum. We all sang along, ate parts of s'mores piece by piece, and had some good laughter. Overall, a wonderful day took place.

Discovery of the day: Lucky charms with chocolate milk instead of regular is delicious.

[every (15) minutes]

I woke up with an uneasy feeling in my stomach. Today was Every 15 Minutes. I packed my bag, grabbed my pillow and caught a ride to school. First hour, about 40 minutes in, the grim reaper, paramedics and police officers filed through the door. They read an obituary about me and I was put onto a stretcher. They covered me with a white sheet, strapped me in and out we went. Laying on that stretcher having no idea where I was being taken to made the whole situation become real to me. "This" happens to people. Everyday in our world, our country, our state, our community. I went through the rest of the day doing my best to keep a straight face and let me tell you, that was a challenge. It's so hard not to smile at people when that's all you do walking trough the halls or not be able to say thank you when someone holds the door open for you. I've never been stared at so much in my life. There were times though when I truly felt dead. People would make fun of me as I walked by and I could hear the mumbles of how stupid it was that we were dressed up. It made me really wonder... is this how people would talk about me if I really was dead? The rest of the day was incredible. We practiced our skit after school for hours. I didn't have much to do since I was officially the "dead girl." All I had to do was write a letter to my parents and read it during the assembly. We went to the hotel, had pizza. Five pieces, yes that's right. Girls can eat too. Officer Meyer kindly drove me over to Bethel for our basketball awards night. I wanted to cry knowing that I'd never again hang out with those dear little boys again. They have been a huge blessing to me. I'd never officially ridden in a cop car but now I can say I have, and for a good reason too! We had some great conversation and I have to say I have a new found respect for police officers. There is so much more to their job than just pulling people over and writing tickets. They are truly inspiring people who can't bear to see people make poor decisions. Once I was back at the hotel we played some fun team building games. There was such a diverse group of kids involved and I made friends with amazing people. We heard from two speakers who have directly been affected by drunken drivers. Their stories made it even more real to all of us. The officers who did the mock death at my house came up and told us how it went. Everyone was in tears by the end. I really can't imagine leaving my parents, my sister, my friends. And to that, I love you all. The chaperon for my room was Mrs. Crocket. Let me tell you, she is one awesome lady! Her stories and red silk pajamas made the evening quite the experience!

people make the heart warm

My day started out with an interesting story on the radio on my way to school. The lady on 93.3 was interviewing Chasin, the band. It apparently is the singer's name but there are other members in the group as well. They formed their band rather quickly and just settled on his name for the band name. He explained that his parents liked both the names, Jason and Chase so they combined them into Chasin. He said that they also liked the name Cody. While he was saying that, the lady chimed in... they could have called you Chody. They all burst into laughter and quickly cut that line. The next song couldn't have come on any faster. I got a good quality laugh out of that one.

The rest of my day was filled with meaningful talks with people I truly care about. At campaigners tonight, we sat down to pray in a tight circle and one of the girls burst into tears while she was praying. She was so overjoyed with what God has been doing in her life that she couldn't keep it in any longer. She said that she's truly understanding what God is all about and has truly been displaying himself everyday in her life. It made everyone in the room smile from ear to ear. It's so incredible to see people bursting with joy over the wondrous works God performs in our lives everyday. And to see baby Christians taking huge leaps of faith and have evident growth in their day to day lives is one of the greatest things to witness.

To one who has faith, no explanation is necessary.
To one without faith, no explanation is possible.

song of hope

Oh goodness, what a day. Soup and ritz crackers for dinner. For some reason, I'm in no mood to write at all. I just want to crawl into my sheets of goodness and sleep for a long while.

This song has completely captured my heart.

chapter 3, verses 1-8

I wore my new/used tevas today. I caught myself looking down at them throughout the day, just to admire them. I walked into my intern and the kids all commented on them. That was the first for the day. Harold took one look at my toe and said, "Jessi has a ring on her toe." Haha, they all thought that was just the funniest thing in the world. It made me smile. I wish I could look at someone's toe and burst into laughter. Children are so innocent and free. I love it.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8. There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace. It seems like I've been so busy lately but what have I been busy with? Am I doing things for God's glory because if I'm not than what's the point? I haven't been stopping and stepping back to see what has been going on. What is it time for?

Laurel just called me and said she read Ecclesiastes today. And I said no way, chapter 3? She said verses 1-8? Yes, how crazy, as she said that my bible was opened to those exact 8 verses and I had just typed it on the blog. What are the odds? Out of every book, every chapter, every verse... God wanted us both to read those words today. He truly is the God of every person, every thought, every life, every moment.

For some reason every time food enters my mouth I fall asleep a very short time later. This is very inconvenient when at my internship and there is a need for working with kids on math assignments. I asked God to do something to keep me awake. He answered me. He had me fall out of my chair. I was indeed quite awake after that.

Oh man, young life, was crazy fun tonight! Bringing back the 80's singing to Bryan Adams. It doesn't get much better than that. I couldn't be more blessed to have a group of friends and a place to go to be crazy and spend evenings together being weird.

Enric Sifa

Enric Sifa. This guy grew up in Rwanda. When he was 6 years old the Genocide began. He watched his brother be hung in his house and people being killed all over the place. He and his little brother hid in the jungle and were able to survive on tomatoes for a while before they went back to their village where Red Cross was giving out food. There he found his mom. The villiage picked a new ruler and the man was very selfish. Enric and his family had a nice house so the new ruler took it away from them. Enric's mother was beaten by a mob of guys and at the age of 9 he lived on the streets. One day a man came up to him and told him about church. He went and was able to sing and dance for free. He liked it there. He was adopted by a family in Portland and now makes music and shares his testimony and faith with people all over the world.

I was privileged to have gotten to hear this testimony at church this morning. How cool is that? My mom said he's only around 19 years old. I was amazed, I can't imagine going through the things he has in his lifetime already. It is such an inspiration to see people sharing their lives with others to encourage and keep them aware of what goes on other than in our own little worlds. My dad and I bought 2 of his cds after church and he even signed it for me! His music is downright amazing. Instead of Dave preaching this morning their was a guest named Moses Pulei. He is also from Rwanda and is a professor at Whitworth for half of the year and teaches in Rwanda for half of the year. He talked about giving all we have to help others and Jesus. It's amazing how someone can put things in to perspective for us in just a few simple words. We can be christians but not mission people and our goal is to be mission minded. Jesus noticed the lady who was faithful in giving all she had when others gave a larger amount but only a portion of what they had. He sought her out and loved her even though she had so little. We are supposed to do the same thing. Reach out to the poor, hurt and needy.

I listened to Enric's cd while running today. It was simply one of the most peaceful jogs I've ever had. Nothing but the sunshine, Enric's voice in my ears and the road ahead.

Karli called me up and informed me that Value Village at velcro Teva's for $5.00. They had 2 pairs in our size and it just so happened that we had both been looking for a pair. Mhmm, score!

I've had it for a while now, but it seems like now more than ever. I have this desire to go to Africa and work in an orphanage. That is my dream, my hope that someday I will have the privilege to do that.

auction

My basketball coaching days are over. Well at least for now. We had our last game today and I was almost in tears on the way home from the game. I absolutely love those boys on my team. They made my Tuesday nights so much better. They were always filled with joy and I felt like I could be a little kid again when I was around them. I have been so blessed to be able to be a coach and hang out with the little chillens and talk to them about Jesus. I mean, it can't get much more awesome than that.

Tonight was the senior party auction and I was one of 3 teenagers who were there. Kailee and I decided that since we're the presidents we should be there to support. We ended up being Vana Whites for the live auction items. It was fun and interesting since I've never seen a live auction before. Two words. Interesting food. I was all about trying new things and I happened to stumble upon a tuna filled mushroom. At least that's what it looked and tasted like. Let me tell you, it was rather disgusting. I advise you not to eat that, ever.

Next came the park, complete with a circle of friends. We started out down by the river, wrapped in blankets. Kevin began telling us his life story and was so rudely interrupted by an angry cop. We were blinded by his car lights and then his heavy duty flashlight. I can understand why he was mad though, it's not everyday you come across a group of young adult christians hanging out in the middle of the park sharing their testimonies at midnight. We then went to Kirby's house where he slaved for us and made a blazing fire. One so big that I thought my eyeballs were going to melt just from being within 5 fit of the thing. We laid on the trampoline, gazing at the beautiful stars while Kevin finished his story. It was amazing to hear how God has worked in his life. Somehow our conversation turned to pooping and let me tell you, I heard some of the greatest poop stories last night. Holy cow, they were awesome!

Bed time at 2 A.M. Nice!

life motto

I'm thinking that I have a summer job as of today. I went and hung out with the kids at Calvary Chapel's daycare. One of the ladies will be gone over the summer on maternity leave and they are looking for someone else to fill her place. The lady sounded pretty promising that it would work out for me. I'm really excited except that it is insanely strict. I was talking to my mom about it though and I guess that's how all daycare's are. Anything for the safety of the kids right?

Laurel and I hiked up Badger today. It was a beautiful, sunny hike. When we don't hang out for a couple days we just talk and talk and talk. There are always endless amounts of stories and I love it. We did 8 minute abs and I think I got a better workout from laughing at Laurel's face than I did from the video.

Meagan McKinney, my long lost friend that is going to school in New York now is home for the next couple of days. We went out to ice cream tonight and had a great time discussing current relationships of every high schooler and freshmen in college that attended Kamiakin. I had a German chocolate blizzard, mmm it was delicious. I would recommend to anyone.

I'm almost done uploading all of my breakaway pictures to facebook. Whew, it has taken me a week to get it all done. I guess that's what I get for taking 400 pictures.

Life motto: I'll follow you into the world, I'll meet the needs for the poor and the needy, God.

thursday

I woke up this morning with red, puffy, hurting eyes from crying for 7 hours the night before. I made it until 2nd hour until I lost it again. There is something about being left alone that brings peace when you're hurting. When you start getting a million overwhelming, "are you okay?" questions, is when it all comes crashing down. I got a hug from that one unexpected person today. It gave me hope that we can fix everything that went up in flames. At least, that's my hope.

My teacher gave me a sticker at my intern today. Strawberry Shortcake, what a cutie. She said I get one cause "I'm a good girl." Oh, how I love elementary school.

I did some hill sprints today for my workout. Only four though. That was my max before I wanted to keel over. It felt good, to put all of my emotions in giving all I had to run as fast as I could up a hill. The sun was shining, and I had to squint. Perfection. The only thing I didn't like about being outside was that I heard every dog's bark in the neighborhood except for my own. Oh how I would give anything to hear Daisy welcome me when I got home from school. It felt so strange and empty coming home to a house where she's been to say hello for the last 13 years as I walk through that front door.

Star Search was quite awesome tonight. We have some very talented people at Kamiakin. I wish I could dance like Victoria, Nicole and Jaxon and sing like Sadie and Kaylee. Man, they have gifts. But I have gifts too... they are just different and unique to who I am. I have only God to thank for them.

Bella, my kitty, layed down on Daisy's bed which never happens. She misses her too. We all would like to have our dog back.

Well, tomorrow is Friday. I'd really enjoy playing some guitar and doing not much of anything else. Maybe that will happen, we'll have to see. Goodnight.