Sunday, February 28, 2010

life's an adventure

Started off the day with a walk on the beach accompanied by Kevin and Eric. It's always great talking with friends who you don't get to see that often. I ate three chocolate chip banana bread muffins at breakfast. I couldn't help myself, they were satisfying my taste buds more than you know. God brought the sun out for quiet time and it was glorious. I closed my eyes, felt the heat on my face and could feel Jesus sitting next to me. We took communion, had cabin time out on the porch and started to clean and pack up. It was a quick weekend but so worth it. We traded Tanner for Andrew on the way home and every time we stopped it lasted about 40 minutes. It made the ride home so much longer but we all enjoyed the adventures. We made memories that I'll never forget.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

love one another.

My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. John 15:12. My prayer is that I can look at people the way Jesus does. He cuts off our bad branches, keeping only the good ones. It's easy to look at what people don't have or their insecurities but who am I to do that? Jesus looks at everyone as a vine ready to bear fruit and my hope is to be more like him and do the same.

Board games are where it's at. Laurel and I played three games of Mancala before I got owned by my new friend Greg. He was the only one to beat me all day. I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty darn good at that game. Jesse led worship today and it was simply amazing. There is something inspiring about someone who can sit in front of a room full of people, play their guitar and sing to the Lord. As Jesse also said, it's awesome to be surrounded by people all singing to the same God, the creator of all of our lives. Jill, the wonderful speaker, keeps telling us that each one of us is created in God's image and that we shouldn't settle for just anyone. It's worth waiting for the one who will love us like Jesus. He takes away all our imperfections and looks only at our beauty.

There was an earthquake in Chile today and because of it we had a Tsunami warning. We weren't allowed to go down on beach for a couple of hours. It's so mind blowing that something half a world away had an impact on what we were able to do today. We went into Seaside and walked around the shops. I found a $13.00 sweater vest at this cute little shop. Laurel and I both purchased the very last two hemp ish like backpacks from Signature Imports. They are amazing. Period. The lady gave us a 20% discount because, Laurel and I, being poor high school students were debating whether to get them. She was the manager of the store and was a very sweet, generous lady. We then went down to the beach and played around, barefoot, feeling the hard sand and ice cold water on our feet. It started to get dark so we watched the sun peeking through the clouds as it went down. I believe that the beach is one of the most beautiful places God has created. Next was diner, club and amazing worship led by Jesse again. The guy who wears Toms and awesome glasses. We went back down to the beach which was completely lit by the moon. We played games and had a bonfire for a few short minutes. The sand was too wet to keep it lit. Most everybody jumped into the ocean so there were cold, wet, half naked bodies everywhere. Laurel, Karyn and I had a great time talking in the cabin before we hit the hay. We ate teddy grams and shared moments. I seriously love my friends. It's so amazing to be surrounded by people who live for the same God I do. I've never quite felt fellowship and love as I have this past year.

Friday, February 26, 2010

just the beginning

School couldn't go by fast enough today. All I could think about was being at the ocean, spending time with wonderful people. Two thirty finally came around and we met at the young life office to get loaded and hit the road. I ended up in Mitch's car and gosh am I glad that happened. Laurel, Taylor Esvelt, Tanner Curtis, Mitch and Rylie had an amazing car ride. It could have been quite possibly the most fun filled road trip I've ever taken. It started off getting stopped in the parking lot before we even left to jump start the car next to us. It didn't work so we were told to get going, which we were thankful for. We literally stopped ten times along the way, each stop lasting about 30 minutes because not one, but all of us had to pee. We spent hours singing and laughing. Mitch happily said, "what's said and done in this car stays in this car". I'd have to say that my favorite part of the whole ride happened to be when it got dark, it was raining so hard we could barely see the road, fog was surrounding us but yet we were in a warm car, all snug and every one of us were singing songs to Jesus. Even though the music was loud, I could hear every voice in the car praising our creator. I closed my eyes and could feel true fellowship. We got lost so many times, missed a few exits, got off on a few wrong ones, headed in the completely wrong direction, and we were the last ones to arrive at the lodge but I wasn't worried. We had an amazing time growing closer as friends and that's a huge part of what this weekend is about. We walked in the door right as Jill, the speaker for the weekend, was finishing her talk. She told us that it's worth waiting for the right guy to come along and sweep you off your feet. We shouldn't settle for less because we are beautiful and God created us all exactly how we are, to be loved for who we are. I needed to hear that. I've been so impatient about meeting my soul mate, or have I already? I know things will work out on God's clock, not mine. Jeremiah 10:23 - I know, O Lord, that a man's life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps. This verse stood out to me this weekend. He has total control over every happy moment in my life. I'm always trying to plan my way through everything and I need to let it all go, give it up to Jesus and let him guide my steps. Cabin time was great. We talked about who in our lives makes us feel the most loved. Hands down, my mother. She makes me feel like I'm the most special person in the world and I'm so thankful for her. Laurel and I shared a bed because there weren't enough. I had my onezie pajamas, darby (my stuffed dog) and my best friend by my side. That equaled a great night of sleep.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

stories that shape you.

Story time: At my intern today, Lincoln asked me to go out to recess with him. I gladly agreed and we found some other boys to play four square with. We were getting pretty into the game and completely missed the 2nd grade bell. We ended up being late to class and walked into the room to everyone else working on math. Oops.

In the last couple of days I've come to realize that:
- I don't need a night light anymore. I'm a big girl now.
- I don't ever want to have bangs again.
- Blowing up a tea bag is possible.
- I probably need to find my own guitar so I don't have to borrow other peoples.
- It would be really nice to be able to sing decently. Voice lessons next.
- Free podcasts are the bomb.
- I'd like to get married wearing Toms, of course my husband will wear them too.
- My packing abilities are pathetic.

I almost got in a car accident today. It involved Josh Thornton's, Kylee Coleman's and my car almost colliding together. I ended up with shaky legs walking into school because of it. I heard on 93.3 one morning that they have never heard of anyone getting in a car accident while worshiping. I would like to say that I was worshiping and therefore we were safe from having an accident. Josh and I talked about it on the way to first hour. I felt God holding me in his hand. He keeps his promises like no one else. He will always keep us safe.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

i'm dreaming in red

I'm really hoping a ton of people go see this movie this weekend. I found out it will be in the theater until March 4th though so I'll be able to see it when I get back from Breakaway this weekend. I decided to go.. it will probably be my last young life camp I'll ever attend as a high schooler. How crazy is that! Only 4 more months left. Eeeek. It's coming so fast!

My dad and I drove to Pasco after he got off work to look at a tool box for my truck and it is now sitting in my truck bed. It's exactly what I've been wanting. Black, diamond plate, wahooo. We then headed over to a guy's house who sold my dad a dirt bike helmet for a great deal. We definitely scored tonight! We went to Bruchees for dinner and I had a way to big sandwich. I ate the whole thing, even though I was about to explode. I rushed over to campaigners and filled my stomach with chocolate cake and banana bread. Will I ever have self control?

Two more days until the ocean... just what I need.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010


So, take a good look at my room. It is simply a disaster. I have things everywhere. It is clear that I am a pack rat and I need to change that. I could start by taking the dishes to the kitchen, hehe.

Carly called me the other day and told me to listen to the sermon from Mars Hill Church that she goes to in Seattle. It was amazing! One of the best sermons I've ever heard. It was on Jesus and Demons. I recommend everyone listen to it. If you go to itunes and find podcasts, type in Mars Hill Church and find the one by Pastor Mark Driscoll on Luke: Jesus and Demons. He talked about how real demons are and how much greater Jesus is. Jesus is our Shepard, pastors are under shepards and we, the people, are sheep. Satan loves to send wolves to attack us. Even though Satan attacks us he is only capable of attacking one person. He has demons, but a few amount. They can only attack a limited amount of people and the cool thing is, Jesus is constantly with us. He can be by everyone's side at the same time. Satan and his little helpers can't even come close to how majestic our Master God is. I downloaded the sermon for free onto my itouch and listened to it while I jogged around the neighborhood. Even though it was cold, I wasn't getting goosebumps from the frigid air, it was because of the true and amazing words pastor Mark talked about.

Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know. Jeremiah 33:3

Monday, February 22, 2010

hearts all over

So I ate this whole plate of left over valentines cookies today... I'm totally kidding. I wish I could have done that. Well, not really cause that would be unhealthy, but still... they are beautiful heart cookies, worthy of eating.

I am in a dilemma for the weekend. I can stay home and coach my little ballers play basketball and watch the movie I have worked so hard at promoting, or I can go to Breakaway... the wonderful weekend get away with people I love. Why do I have to be so busy and involved with so many things? Oh right, because I like it and being busy is a common factor in my life.

It is way too late to up on a school night so I'm going to get to bed. Goodnight, sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

C.S. Lewis

The beautiful mug I received as a birthday gift from two lovely girls, Megan and Amy.

Don't use words too big for the subject. Don't say "infinitely" when you mean "very"; otherwise you'll have no word left when you want to talk about something really infinite.
C.S. Lewis

Miracles are a retelling in small letters of the very same story which is written across the whole world in letters too large for some of us to see.
C.S. Lewis

Saturday, February 20, 2010

little blue

Well, there she is. My little blue. I rode her for the very first time today. Meaning I literally learned how to ride a motorcycle this morning. It was so much fun! I really thought it was going to take me forever to get it right but I'm giving my stick shift driving all the credit. My dear purple truck has taught me well.

Friday, February 19, 2010

you and i both.

'Cause you and I both loved, what you and I spoke of, and others just read of, others only read of the love...

This song, You and I both (Live) by Jason Mraz, just came on Pandora while I was sitting on the floor in my room. A thousand memories just came flooding back to my mind... I'll never forget standing on the floor in the Rose Garden in Portland looking directly at Jason Mraz 20 feet away from me. Tommy's arm was around my waist and we were squished in the middle of hundreds of fans screaming and singing along. We were both singing and laughing, marveling that we were in the middle of reality and not dreaming. I was hungry, me legs and back hurt from standing for so long, and I kept getting bumped around but at that moment I was completely and utterly happy. "Well I'm almost finally out of, I'm finally out of, finally de de de de de de, well I'm almost finally, finally out of words." Words couldn't describe the way I felt at that exact time of my living. After those words escaped our mouths, Tommy and I looked at each other and everything was right in the world. I had a best friend at my side and nothing could take away the joy of being where I was. Laurel told me I'm not allowed to be a Taylor (meaning that I write about all the boys who have broken my heart), and this is certainly not for that purpose. I was reminded of a joyful time and I felt like writing it down.

The Kamiakin vs. Richland boys basketball game was intense tonight! We ended up losing but they played great. Too bad the refs sort of ruined it for us. I went to Laurel's house after the game and we finished watching Julie & Julia. It's such a cute movie and it made me want to cook something, not with raw meat though! We surfed the net and came across some pretty hilarious things. We had some dang good laughs.

If I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put U and I together...

Thursday, February 18, 2010

A Greater Vision

The paper was not on the doorstep this morning went I looked out the window. I usually tip toe in my pajamas to the front door and peek around the corner to see if the paper boy has so kindly delivered it. Instead I found my mom's Guidepost magazine on the counter and opened it up while I ate my bran chex and cinnamon life. I came across a story about how the president of World Vision got his job. It's pretty darn inspirational. The whole time I read the story I had goosebumps up and down my legs. Here is his story: How Richard Stearns Took Over World Vision.
I also read about how he became a christian. It is quite possibly one of the greatest love stories I've ever read about. Having God at the center of love, life and completely everything about you is definitely needed. I also like to read about people who do, it makes my heart happy. Here is his love story : A Blind Date - With God.

I've got a little hope here, and I'd like to share it with you. Just make sure you don't drop it...

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

healing hand of god.

Healing Hand Of God - Jeremy Camp

I have seen the many faces,
I fear in the pain.
I have watched the tears fall plenty,
From heart ache and strength.
So if life's journey,
Has you weary and afraid.
There's rest in the shadow of his wings.
I have walked through the valleys,
The mountains and plains.
I have held the hand of freedom,
It washes all my stains.
If you feel the weight of many trials,
And burdens from this world.
There's freedom in the shelter of the Lord.

I have seen,
The healing hand of God,
Reaching out and mending broken hearts.
Taste and see the fullness of His peace,
And hold on to what's being held out.
The healing hand of God.

I have touched the scars upon His hands,
To see if they were real.
He has walked the road before me,
He knows just how I feel.
When you feel there is not anyone,
Who understands your pain,
Just remember all of Jesus' suffering.

Cast all your cares on Him,
For He cares for you.
He's near to the broken and confused.
By His stripes,
Our spirit is renewed.
So enter in the joy prepared for you.

The healing hand of God
And hold on to what's being held out
The healing hand of God

I heard this song on the radio while driving home tonight. The words spoke right to my heart. Sometimes we all get in a rut but if we can look past it to the joy that God has promised us, it makes the pain a little bit more tolerable. Jesus went through an unfathomable about of pain, all for me. How can my sorrows even measure up? The amazing thing about it all is that Jesus cares for every little heartache I have. He cares when I'm unhappy and wants nothing more than to bring me joy.

Psalm 63:7 ~ Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

The Big 18

I did not take this picture obviously, but it deserved the blog. Today is the first day of the beginning of my adulthood. As of today, February 16 of 2010 I am 18 years old. Yes watch out. I can officially be arrested now. Haha, I really don't plan on doing anything that would get me arrested just to make that clear. My mom threw me a surprise party tonight. Even though there has been 2 surprise parties within the last couple of weeks I was not expecting it at all. I was so surprised and it was awesome!

Even though I really love my ipod touch and every other gift that was given to me for my birthday I'd have to say that the best birthday gift I received was from Kaden, one of my basketball players. He came rushing into practice today with a ring snapped in between his snap up sweat pants. He made sure it was snapped safely so he wouldn't loose it. After practice I asked to see this special ring of his and he handed it to me and said, "here, for your birthday." I about cried. It is a cheap, plastic ring with a picture of a puppy on in but his simple thoughtfulness touched my heart in a huge way. I really hope that when I have kids someday, they will be as sweet and darling as Kaden. This ring is a gift I will always remember, forever.

I have been wished happy birthday more times today than I could ever imagine. I wish I could just shout a big thank you to everyone around me. I am surrounded by amazing people and I love all of you. Thank you for making my birthday so special.

Monday, February 15, 2010

a little mud.

A couple miles later, a little mud on the shoes, feeling much more accomplished. My dad rode his new bike while I ran through the trails at State Patrol. It is a beautiful land. A place to get lost in thought and forget where you are. I'm thinking when the weather is warmer it might be a possible location for some senior pictures. On the way home we stopped to get Milky Way mochas. We irritated the lady behind us in the drive through because we didn't leave fast enough. I had a perfect photo opp so it took us a minute.

I know now, Lord, why you utter no answer.
You are Yourself the answer.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

spread the love

Today is Valentines day. Jesus is my special valentine. At discipleship we talked about loving Jesus with everything we have. The Lord is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. The Lord protects the unwary; when I was brought low, he saved me. -Psalm 116: 5-6. He loves us more than anything and anyone and that is something to be thankful for. If we are wanting to rebel against Jesus and his plans for our lives than we don't love him enough. My goal everyday is to love him with every part of myself.

LOVE is the root.
OBEDIENCE is the fruit.

My parents gave me my birthday gift tonight and it was an ipod touch! Holy smokes, this is one cool gadget. It is so awesome and I'm super excited to put all of my music on it. Now I won't have to erase 10 songs every time I want to add one cause guess what? This new guy holds 17,000 songs! Yes, that's right, 17,000. Oh man, I just can't wait to play around with it more. Thank you mom and dad, and grandma and grammy! I love you all.

I ran 5 miles today and it was much needed. I haven't had a good hard workout like that in a long time. I don't really remember the last time I sweat that much! I've been in a depression state for a while and exercising really helps to lift my spirits. My mom had this great idea of training for the Bloomsday race in Spokane. It's a 7.5 mile race and I've decided that I'm going to do it. I'm pretty sure it's the second biggest race in the world or United States, I'm not quite sure on that one. I do know that thousands of people take part it in and I'm really excited. I'm going to start training and it will give me something to strive for. I really want to get in good shape and have a nice swim suit bod for the summer ;) I need a little motivation to stop eating sweets everyday.

Anyways, I hope everyone had a wonderful valentines day! Spread the love.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

To Save A Life

Please watch this movie trailer. This movie was written by a youth pastor. It has changed hundreds of lives. The thing is... to bring the movie to our town we have to get 1,000 signatures proving that we want it to be shown in our theaters. Brianna Brannon had the idea and now has turned into a passion to bring this movie to the Tri-Cities. She asked me to help her and with a little research about the movie it has become a passion of mine as well. It is our goal to advertise and get students and parents excited to watch this movie and we're praying hard that it will touch people's hearts in ways that they never would have imagined.

Did you know?

- Depression strikes about one out of eight teenagers.
- About 1.5 million children experience the divorce of their parents each year.
- 14 to 39% of teens have had at least one incident of deliberate self injury.
- Suicide is the third leading cause of death among 10 to 19 year olds.

On the To Save A Life website there is a page of testimonials from people who have watched the movie. Every single one of them gave me goosebumps while I was reading them. Here are a few:

Victor - My life was going good and I was trying to put God first. But really there was a lot of sin in my life that I was hiding and repeating. I didn't realize how I was hurting God. I then decided to study the Bible and learn more about God and what it takes to become a disciple. And during that time my friend died in an accident and then my dog died. That really made me think about my life and how short it is. And then later I injured my ankle and I was in a cast, which stopped me from playing basketball. It really helped me to learn to focus more on God. I think all those difficulties that happened helped me to grow stronger in him. Then I decided to give my life to Christ and I was baptized and I became a Christian.

Taylor - Our youth group had a high school lock in so we could all go see To Save A Life together. I thought that I would have no one to connect to in the movie. I was really wrong. I could connect to almost every character in a certain way. No, I've never wanted to kill or cut myself, but it was a perfect representation of my high school and what my friends go through every day.This movie and book has changed my youth group, school, and me. It has thought us that the smallest actions can change someones life physically and eternally. For this I'm grateful.

If you watch the movie trailer and believe that this movie can change hearts and make an impact on our community please share the information with friends. Send them the link to the trailer and feel free to let me know what you think!

Some people are just dying to be heard.

Friday, February 12, 2010

prince charming.

We went to Red Robin to celebrate Kailee's birthday. Austin, her boyfriend, surprised her with a crown and a bouquet of flowers wearing a prince charming outfit. It was by far the sweetest thing I've seen in a long time. We went to Valentine's Day and it was a such a cute movie. Besides the fact that Bradley Cooper and Eric Dane, the two most attractive guys in the movie, ended up gay together. They also made Taylor Swift look like a complete ditz. It really triggered my desire for a valentine. Someday I'll have one...

Thursday, February 11, 2010

3 things

First of all, my fingers are throbbing. I went to the dermatologist today for my wart issue. I got referred to the actually doctor instead of the assistant who I've seen the last 5 times I've visited that dreadful place. He injected medicine into them and applied this cream that makes them blister, pretty much to the size of balloons. The next couple of days 5 of my finger tips and my right palm will feel like my heart is beating in them. It honestly is one of the most painful things I've ever done. Bring on round two. Hopefully this time it will work.

, I went to Olive Garden for dinner with my parents and grandparents to celebrate my dad and my birthdays. The manager and our waiter sang us happy birthday and brought us a delicious cake. My grandparents spent a lot of the time talking about golf and how they can't believe I'll be 18 years old. Oh how I love them.. I'm going to miss them dearly when I leave for college.

Third thing
, I read this verse this morning and I really enjoyed it.
I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people. -Jeremiah 31:33

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Did you know?

The Vietnam Memorial Wall is wheel chair height so they can touch the names.
All of the mementos left at the wall go into an archive 3 stories underground.
The Capitol building has the tallest Masonry Dome in the United States.
The Tiffany Chandelier in the rotunda weighs 10,000 pounds and can fit a Volkswagen Bug inside of it.
It was potato day at the Capitol. The rotunda was filled with people in suits eating baked potatoes! Quite funny if you ask me.
We have 39 county's in our state.
Washington is one of few states who has a Legislative Hotline.

My feet are still cold from sitting on a freezing cold school bus for 5 hours. It was nice to take a day off from school though. Back to reality tomorrow.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

field trip!

My CIE class left after lunch for Olympia. We are going to be touring the Capitol building tomorrow. We arrived at the mall around 5:00 and spent 2 hours and 45 minutes shopping and milling around. Breanna and I bought matching shirts from Wet Seal and American Eagle for $2.00 each. We also found amazing scarves at Hollister for only $5.00. Originally $50.00. We scored big time! We had subway for dinner and had coconut and pomegranate self serve frozen yogurt for dessert. We fit 5 people into one of those photo booths. That was quite the experience! When we got to the hotel, my room buddies, Toni and Breanna and I watched The Biggest Loser. That was the first time I'd seen the show and I am definitely a fan of Sunshine. We all feel asleep watching the television. Tomorrow will be a big day...

Happy Birthday Dad! I love you, you're the greatest dad in the world!

Monday, February 8, 2010


I had salad for dinner. It consisted of lettuce, string cheese, yellow peppers and edamames. Quite delicious. Young Life started back up tonight. It was a blast. Everyone wore white shirts and we colored each other with highlighters. Of course the only lights we had were black lights. It was so stinking awesome! I'm not really in the mood for writing tonight so I'm going to keep it short. I'm going on a field trip with my CIE class tomorrow. We will be visiting Olympia and will be back on Wednesday. Hopefully I'll get some nice pictures to share. Goodnight.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

seventh of february

Today is the seventh day of February. Only 9 days until I'll be the big 18. I'm excited but it's not like I'm going to feel any older. Pastor Dave preached an awesome message this morning in church. The big question - is your name in the book of life? That's really all that matters while we're here on earth. Every human being, great or small, from every time and everywhere will stand before the Lord and be let into heaven or told to leave. It's a scary thought, to think about all of those around us who won't be welcomed into the Lord's arms on that judgment day. And because of that we need to shine His light on all we can and pray that their hearts will be open to receive the good news.

To start the eating off for the day, my discipleship group had brunch at Christina's house. We all brought a breakfast food, hence the word brunch, except for Laurel who brought garlic bread! Laurel and I had fun taking pictures out side while Erwin decided to take pictures of us taking pictures from the window. The neighbors thought he was stalking them and it created tons of laughter for everyone involved. We also spent some time playing with Kaizo, the giant husky dog. He is pretty much a teddy bear. I just wanted to cuddle up on the couch with him. We then traveled to the Johnston's house for a Super Bowl party. Go Saints! I came home and had dinner with my parents, grandma and her boyfriend ;) We celebrated my dad's birthday cause he'll be out of town visiting Carly on Tuesday. Brunch, Super Bowl party, birthday dinner = way too much food for one person to eat in a day, well let's say ever! My belly wants to explode.

I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life. -John 5:24

Saturday, February 6, 2010

good friends, good times

I really like this music video. It's so simple and cute.

We had another basketball game this morning. It was a tough one. We only had 5 players so they played the entire game and the whole time I wondering if they even knew what basketball was... It was that kind of game. My mom and I spent way too long at Target and I had a wonderful time at Edwin and Cristy's. We had Papusas and choco-bananos! It was so enjoyable to sit around the table and reminisce about El Salvador. Laughter and smiles filled the room. Guess what else I did? I baked muffins! Poppy seed and blueberry, mmmm. They are for tomorrow's festivities and you'll hear about those later.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Dear John

Dear John is a great movie. Period. I absolutely love chick flicks and this one was right up my alley. John and Savanah are so adorable. They make me want to fall into a relationship like theirs. I especially want to be on the beach. Watching them run on the sand wearing shorts and swimsuits made me so jealous. If I could be anywhere in the world, it would be where my feet could be buried in the warm sand, with the salty breeze blowing my hair and the sun beating down on my skin. Aww, doesn't that just sound glorious? The soundtrack to this movie is really good as well. My favorite song of the bunch happens to be Little House by Amanda Seyfried. I love that she is actually singing this song in the movie and it's not a fake voice. Gosh, I just love stories of people who are madly in love with each other. They make my heart happy.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

live your life.

Build house and settle down; plant gardens and eat what they produce. Marry and have sons and daughters; find wives for your sons and give your daughters in marriage, so that they too may have sons and daughters. Increase in number there; do not decrease. Also, seek the peace and prosperity of the city to which I have carried you into exile. Pray to the Lord for it, because if it prospers, you too will prosper.
Jeremiah 29:5-7

The Lord tells us to live our lives. He wants us to have a family and bring babies into this world. He wants us to share them and let them grow to be wonderful people who he has created them to be. He wants us to have houses and eat from our own gardens. I can't wait to live this part of my life. Don't get me wrong, high school has been a memorable time. I have loved these years. They have been hard, I've struggled but I've also made amazing friends and done and seen some pretty spectacular things.

My workout today was a failure. I have never felt so light headed and ready to just lay on the ground before. I went to group ride after a good 45 minutes of lifting and abs. Not the best idea. I'm sticking to yoga on Thursdays!

Random things of today:

I was interviewed at lunch for a spotlight in the school paper.
I've been intentionally washing my hands in the kitchen more often because I really like the smell of the soap. Pink grapefruit, mmmm.
I really enjoy listening to this song.
Tomorrow Dear John comes out and I'm going to see it with Laurel. I've been waiting months for this day.
I officially suck at strumming on the guitar.
And singing... lets add that one in there too.
I didn't have tea this morning and my day wasn't quite as complete.
I wore my Toms today. They are my favorite pair of shoes.

When you have only two pennies left in the world, buy a loaf of bread with one, and a lily with the other.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

loss of words.

For some reason I'm at a loss for words tonight. I had some pretty deep talks today with a friend that is really dear to me. We've slowly drifted apart but when we are together it's like we're best friends again. It's been a rather emotional day. Two of my best friends broke up. It's things like those that just make my heart sad. I know that everything will okay, but getting caught up in sad moments is never very fun. I realized today that there are so many more of my friends than I thought that don't know Jesus and spend every day trying to fill their empty hearts with things that just won't do it. They look to drinking, sex, drugs, idols and trying to make themselves look perfect. My heart goes out to them. I will pray for them and hope that God will work on their hearts.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

ground hogs day

Well, today is ground hogs day and Mr. Ground Hog saw his shadow. That deserves a little slap on the back. I really want winter to just go away. Except for wool socks and drinking tea curled up in a blanket there is really nothing nice about the cold. I think I'm going to throw a party the first day it's hot outside.

Monday, February 1, 2010


My precious dog Daisy is getting old. She has cancer in her lungs and is noticeably getting worse as time goes by. We recently took her to the Vet and they told us that when she stops eating her food then it might be time to put her down. Just the last couple of days she won't eat her food unless my mom is in the room. My dad thinks she is holding out for my mom. It makes me want to cry every time I think about her. She won't even lift her head to look at me when I get home from school. I normally would get frustrated because she wouldn't stop barking. Come to think of it, I don't remember the last time she did bark. Gosh, I love that dog. She has been my Daisy baby since I was a little girl. I can't really imagine what it will be like without her. She is such a huge part of this family.

Today I was told that I need to share myself more with the world. According to this teacher I have so much to offer to people and it's selfish of me to hold it back. Is it because I'm shy? Or because I don't know how? Or maybe, I just don't want to... I'm pretty sure it's a combination of all three. I guess I don't feel worthy enough that people would want to see a passionate and soulful person that I am. I know I need to be more vocal and just "do" rather than hold back. From now on, that is my goal. I am going to strive to share myself, my goals, my visions with those I love and those I don't even know.